Thanksgiving

Thank you God for everything. 

Words will never be enough to thank You and Your greatness. 

I love you from inside my heart.

Thank God

Thank God for:

- a friend that avail herself to help

- a friend that always keep me in prayer

- a friend that cheer me up

- a pastor that has great message

- even for a friend that is pulling me down cause from there God pulled me to the top

- mostly i thank God for i know that i am a child of God

Matthew 4 : The Temptation of Jesus

This is a reflection i got by reading this chapter of the bible. 

This is purely by my experience. I did not get this from a bible study class or anything. 

This bible chapter is mainly talking about the temptation of Jesus when he just finished fasting. 

I will be talking about the 2 first temptation. 

1. Matthew 4:4

"man shall not live by bread alone but by every word that proceeds from the mouth of God."(NKJV) 

The word live here doesn't literally means our physical life, but also our spiritual life. 

It is true that without the word of God, man will die spiritually. 

What does it mean by "die spiritually"??

- loosing your vision and focus of what God wants to do in your life.

- loosing the meaning of life. in this i meant u might have a certain goal in your life but you might not have the eternal meaning why you are doing so. 

- loosing eternal happiness. Happiness for being with God. U might have a great time partying or playing around with your friends or may also do a lot of worldly fun things, but after a while, you will be alone and thinking how empty is your life once the party is over.

- loosing the meaning of God's words. In this spiritual dryness time, u may understand the surface of the word of God, but not in depth and definitely not being planted in your heart. Because there is no Holy Spirit in you.

- and the most horrible thing is: LOOSING THE PRESENCE OF GOD IN YOUR LIFE. No matter how God shout to tell us what to do, we can never hear Him. 

as far as i know "die spiritually" is all about LOOSING SOMETHING PRECIOUS. 

Why would God let His people "die spiritually" or have "spiritual dryness"???

- God's greatest gift for man is the gift to have our own will. Many people choose to take the wrong way and ignoring God when they can still hear Him. one day they will realized that they can't hear God anymore. 

- Sometimes through this, many people actually realized how life without God is miserable. It is true that "We usually don't appreciate what we have until we lost it".

- Through this people like me can actually encourage other people facing same problem and also can share this to other people so that they won't fall into the same mistakes.

How to get out of this problem??

- mean what you say, pray, and worship.

- if God tell you to change, do it NOW. DO NOT PROCRASTINATE

- you have to know the law of sowing and reaping. If u drag yourself away from God, how can you go back to Him???? so you have to realized that you have to keep on pulling yourself towards God. There will be a lot of voices saying "you are not worthy anymore etc etc etc...". Don't believe it! God has paid for ALL of your sins. 

- "Ora Et Labora". I don't know which language this came from, but it means, work and pray. You can't just pray, pray, pray and hoping God to do all the things. You have to ACT. Pull yourself towards God.

2. Matthew 4:5-7

In verse 5 and 6 it is shown that both satan and Jesus knows how much God loves Jesus. He (Jesus)  also knows that God will protect Him if He ever fall. But this doesn't mean He will voluntarily fall into temptation and just let God help Him. 

This is an character we must all have. Why do we want to fall into temptation hoping that God will pull us back up. By falling into temptation like this, you are voluntarily dragging yourself away from God. This is not the right attitude. 

Well in conclusion i must say that if you know that you are one of this people who has done wrong, come back to God. He has been calling upon you, but you just might not hear what He said.. Come with an open heart. Come with CONFESSIONS of your sins and your desire to come back to Him.. 

There in His sanctuary you will hear a voice "Come my dear child.. Welcome Home.."

Be Blessed...

My Prayer

My prayer today

Dear God,

I pray that no one in school will break down. 

I pray that U bless each and everyone of us in everything we do.

Give us the inspiration and creativity to all of our work.

Give us energy and motivation in doing our work.

I pray Lord, that we will all come out with a fabulous collection that stunt every one.

Give us the wisdom in financial area, also bless our parents abundantly because U know how much we need.

I pray that every need is met and every wound is healed. 

I personally want to bless all of the lecturers. 

I bless them in the name of the Lord.

God, please give them a healthy body and creativity. That they will be able to guide us to the right way. 

Heal every sickness and soften every heart. 

I lift up all our burdens and brokenness into Your hand. 

Let heaven be open upon our life. 

Thank You Lord,

Amen

Reasons to Praise

This might be the worst week of my life as a student in NAFA.. 

super exhausted. 

if u r at the same class with me and see me everyday, u may know what is happening. 

some of my friends are very concerned with my stress condition. 

I'm emotionally very tired. 

YET i still have reason to praise. 

yep, 

Among all the bad things i just realized there are so many reasons to be thankful of.

1. Thank God, I'm still standing and not quitting. 

2. Thank God, He is still holding me and walk with me.

3. Thank God that my parents are very supportive. 

4. Thank God I have a friend like Yan Hsiang. Who is always helping me and cheering me up.

5. Thank God there is Hussein, a friend who never fail to make my day full of smile.

6. Thank God for all the leaders in church. Ko Yoh, Pst. Aries, Pst. Kong. They are the inspiration of my life

7. Thank God I have leader like Ko Yon, who always give me the best consoling. One of the leader that always hold me when i'm drowning. 

8. Thank God I have Ika, who is always there to share in good times and in bad times.

9. Thank God, He put one of His daughter STEPHANIE NG to be in the same class with me. To be the best-est friend ever.

10. Thank God I have Mio and Siska. We always have fun together.

11. Thank God for the cell group He has put me in. 

12. Thank God for giving me reason to live.

13. Thank God for Limink, Q pen, and Jemima. They are the reason i kept on doing what i do.

14. Thank God for Gary Goh, that through him i learnt the lesson of life. 

but most of all 

15. THANK GOD, YOU CAME INTO MY LIFE. change me to be a better person and giving me another chance when i'm falling down. 

thank You Lord,

thank You

thank You

In the Desert

It's been a long time that i really feel like i'm walking in the desert. Since i came to this third year of my studies, i really feel like i'm always worn out and not enough time to rest and do work. Even though sometimes i know i have enough rest, but i'm still emotionally tired. Tired of the overwhelming loads of works. 

As time goes by i really realized that i'm dry in the inside. The excitement and faith just disappeared. In the panic i don't know what to do. 

Instead of pulling near to God, i pushed myself from God. In this point of the time, even though all my friends can see me as a cheerful person, i'm losing everything. I'm losing myself. I'm losing the most precious help i got. I'm covering myself from God. Even when He came to be my support, i just ran away. This must be the most miserable time of my life. This is the worst time of my life.

When things don't turn out what i think should happen, i blame all the other people around me. I blame my teacher, i blame my parents, and eventually i blame God for not helping me. The spirit of a quitter keep on coming to me.

At the peak of this mountain, i finally realized that i really need Him by my side. I  cried out "GOD.... GOD...... GOD....... JESUS......!!!! JESUS.... LORD....". At that point of me calling His name, His presence struck down on me. He comforted me. 

I cried "God, it is all over. I'm too late to realize that You are always here with me. I'm too late to pick this up again. I can't go back to where i'm supposed to be" 

He is truly the Lord my father. He said "Don't worry child, there is never too late for Me. Praise and call upon My name."

He reminded me about praising His name in every condition of my life. I started singing.. 

"It's for freedom that Christ has set us free..

I live for You and not for me anymore.. 

And Your mercy is new with everyday..

No longer will i forfeit grace,

I'll follow You and live by faith.."

(Freedom by CCC)

Indeed He set me free from all haters towards my lecturer. He told me about when Jesus was nailed on the cross for our sin, He didn't curse the people that nailed Him, He blessed them. The same thing applied to me. I felt like i'm being killed emotionally. But God able to raise me again. so I started blessing my lecturer.

I live for You and not for me anymore. Even though deep down i really want to quit, but i'm not living for myself anymore. I'm living for Him. So, 

"I WAS NOT A QUITTER, AM NOT A QUITTER, WILL NEVER BE A QUITTER"

Yeaps, we are more than a conqueror. 

"And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon forged against me shall remain

I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here"

(Desert Song - Hillsong)

In Him alone i can stand up and slay the goliath in my life. 

My prayer today:

"Dear Jesus my Lord. I'm so sorry for ignoring Your presence in my life. But thank You that You still persevere and stay by my side. I'm not a quitter and i give You my life. Let my life be Your clay, mould me in Your way. I'm going to stand strong in the days of my life cause i know that You are greater than all the earth. Let my word shout Your praise and let my life bring You glory. Thank You Lord"

......

Don't know what the title is, but actually i was so inspired by my friend's blog. 

in there she was sharing about her dead computer and realizing that she doesn't have any backup data for the school work. 

and yet she said 

"i remember saying that if God can revive a dead person, he can retrieve this dead com too."

truly enough, her com was resurrected.. hahaha.. ^^

there is nothing faith can't do 

be blessed

What's Up? ^^

How have u been?? 

been so super busy for a couple of weeks. no time to play around. ^^ 

I'm going back to SG on july, 11th. (about 2 weeks time) 

to be honest, right now I don't know which one i like better, working or studying. 

What i do know is i miss everyone in singapore a lot. I miss church, my dearest Ika (haha), Stef, Ko Yon, Ming, Lala, S43, school friends, etc etc etc etc etc.

But here in Indo is where my family belongs. Haven't got time to catch up with everyone yet. If only i have 3 months of holiday. That'd be great. Beside that, i think i'm getting attached with the people i worked with. They are so very generous and nice people that i don't want to lose contact with. 

Time runs so fast. Hope i can catch up with its rhythm. 

Miss and will miss you all 

working

it's been a while since i last blogged.. 

yea, I'm in indonesia and having my internship program 

i'm working at a mega company named PT. Mitra Adiperkasa

this one company is having most of the high street fashion brands under them. 

such as topshop, topman, zara, marks&spencer, next, lacoste, nine west, dorothy perkins, nautica, miss selfridge, etc.

Not to mention all the reebok, starbucks, and many big department stores in indo..

Well, i'm working for marks&spencer though. 

It is one tough work i think. I'm always very exhausted at the end of the day. 

So everyday i arrive at the office at about 7.30 am (my working hour is 8.30 am to 5.30 pm) and i leave about 6 plus. very tiring. 

beside the tiring work, i'm so thankful for the wonderful people around me. my colleagues and bosses are SUPER nice. They really help and teach me a lot. 

One thing i really thank God is about my boss. She looks like she is in her early twenties, but actually she is not. She is older than i thought. She is very beautiful, Angelina Jolie's face and model's body. She is a DM,very talented and nice. Last thurs my GM invited all of us to have dinner together (her treat) and my DM took me back to my place (because it's already so late at night). On the way, we were talking casually and then suddenly we started to talk about church. It happens to be that she is also a Christian that is so on fire. 

She reminded me of a verse

"And the Lord will make you the head and not the tail; you shall be above only and not beneath, if you heed the commandments of the Lord your God which I command you today, and are careful to observe them" 

Deuteronomy 28 : 13 (NKJV)

She is young, talented, and most of all God bless her abundantly. God bless her family and He put her on top and not beneath. She is the head and not the tail! 

True testimony of walking with God!

-Be Blessed- 

A Trip To Malaysia.. ^^

Just came back from the trip.. 

I'm exhausted and i think so does all of my friends. They haven't OL yet.

The trip was AMAZING

Huge place

SUPER AMAZING food

Fantastic Friends 

CHEAP..

Basically I spent S$110 for 3 days 2 nights trip. 

So happy. 

But now back to reality. Have to take an internship program for 6 weeks. HUMPH... 

But feel very blessed to experienced such trip

Indonesia

It's been a while since the last time i contacted my indo friends. 

It is either i am very busy or they are very busy.. 

Somehow our time always clash. 

And when our time fit, somehow something happen and can't get connected. 

Well, i really miss you all.. What about you?

Maybe this is life of living overseas.

well, i'm glad to have all of my CG friends and classmates. 

i'm scared to say this, but i think they are all taking the place.. 

i really miss you, 

but even if i avail myself, you just don't.

Is it only me missing you and u don't?

Maybe someone else has taken my place also.. 

We can't get connected if there is no communication. And maybe it is hard for us to contact each other. 

Maybe it is supposed to be like this..

Maybe "those" are just words..

We are growing apart and nothing i can do

I'm sorry 

Sun Ho

I've been spending my last 2 days watching sun's music video and looking through her pics. And WOW.. I'm so amazed by her...

And she is pst. Kong's wife.. Double WOW... ^^

Well, i felt a bit sad when i saw that some people gave some negative comments about her. They are saying like she is bringing the wrong image of a church. 

hmmm... all i can say is that "you can't see what good she do if you close your eyes"

 This is why i think she is the perfect role model!

1. She does dress like that but that doesn't make her unholy! 

2. She is the true salt and light. She is bringing God to the entertainment world and winning souls with her golden heart

If you want to criticize her, think this for yourself,

Does Jesus ever asked us to sit down and He will bring the lost to us or does He asked us to engage the culture? Do you know that many people are afraid to come to church because they think that they are unholy? because they see Christians being so judgmental to them. Because Christians looked down on them! what did JC do when He saw a prostitute? Did He condemn her or did he engaged her with the love of Christ? 

Sun is leading people towards Christ. She is doing the cultural mandate and she is a living testimony to all the people. She is showing the world that becoming an entertainer like her doesn't mean giving up her holiness. 

We are all called for different things in life cause we are the body of Christ. aren't us supposed to work together and support each other as the body of Christ? Sun is called in the entertainment industry. It is not an easy calling. She is standing still to glorify Him. Why would we condemn her when God asked us to support each other? 

- XOXO - 

Living like there is no tomorrow

Right now i am talking to my friends. We're talking about the end of the world. 

And we are all saying, "God, take me to heaven before the 666 time.."

well, as i was thinking about that i suddenly remember... "what if we are in heaven and looking to the world and see someone we know on earth struggling???"

what do you think? 

suddenly one of my friend said "i once thought that i wanted to live like there is no tomorrow"

Those words stuck in my mind

Actually I was asking God about how can I live my life to the fullest?

And God said, "that's the answer. Live like there is no tomorrow."

Live like tomorrow Jesus will come for the second time. 

I asked, "why?"

He asked me back, "How will you live your life is there is no tomorrow?"

And suddenly i knew the answer..

Think about it yourself. How would you live your life if there is no tomorrow.. Will you do your best or you will do the worst thing ever? 

- be blessed - 

10 bad things and habit

1. i don't throw away anything. I always feel bad in throwing away something. I always thought that someday it can be used again. So i piled up a lot of junk that i just simply don't want to throw away. 

2. I love buying new handphone. I can easily be bored of using one phone and craved for a new one. Like right now i'm craving for n97 which my dad refused to buy for me. (but i'll find a way though.. ^^)

3. I love to buy make ups. Even tough i already have plenty and my friends thought i have more than enough already. 

4. I am soft toy collectors.. hmmm.. my parents often complain on how many dolls and soft toys i still keep until right now.. ^^

(these are only some of them, cause can't get them all together)

5. I have an irritating habit of continuously moving my feet and spinning a pen as i think (the pen often fall down and create some noise). I just can't stay still.. ^^

6. I LOVE to sleep... I sleep a lot... 

7. I am an original CD collector. (which pissed off my dad, cause he thinks buying original music CD is a waste of money.. But i simply love to buy CDs. I bought them without my dad knowing though. Until one day, he came into my room and realized how many CDs i have and started to scream.. hahahahahaha... )

8. I love to watch movies. On every holiday i spent 50% of my days watching DVD. From stupid drama to thriller movies. Even the DVD seller in Indo knows me. Cause i can buy around 30-50 DVDs in one time and i can finish everything in one week (this often makes me coral with my dad, because he thinks that watching movie all day long is an act of laziness)

9. I talk a lot. my roommates said that i have a quota of 75000 words per day. *so much more than average people*

10. I still have a lot more bad habits and things... hahahahaha.. eventually 10 is not enough... ^^

Relationship

I promised one of my friend to post this on my blog..

So for the past 2 months (approximately) Pst Kong is preaching about marriage relationship. Basically the main objective is so that all the members will have strong marriage. 

So the sermon started in what is Marriage 

1 Corinthians 7:3

= marriage is giving exclusive right for each other.

The reason for getting married is to meet each other needs. So affair will happen when the needs are not met.

And as all of you know that man's and woman's needs are different. 

So Pst Kong started the first series of relationship by telling us the 5 basic needs of man and woman. These are the basic needs:

I'll start with woman's

1. Affection

affection symbolize: security, protection, comfort, and approval

Song Of Solomon 4:1-9

2. Conversation

base on research 89% of marriage broke because lack of communication

to satisfy this need, man must talk to his spouse for minimum of 15 hours/week

and this 15 hours must be intimate as in privately without intervention (even their child)

Conversation will help to:

=> Find out the needs of each other

=> Find out if you have meet each other's need

Philippians 2:4

3. Honesty and Openness 

Giving 100% trust

=> telling everything you know and also everything you think

without honesty and openness woman will feel insecure 

For man: you must tell your spouse everything, wether it is bad or good. 

=> woman got intuition and they are much more stronger than you think

4. Financial Support

this means enough money to support her life

1 Timothy 5:8 => man must support your family

financial support is one of the emotional need

woman would like to work because she loves to not because she has to

5. Family Commitment 

Every wives want their husbands to take lead of the family

what she wants:

=> Spend lots of time with the children (family quality time)

=> Proper parenting skills 

=> provide wise discipline 

      Ephesians 6:4 => don't make unreasonable rules

=> Explain rules to kids ==> explaining the reason

=> Learn how to handle anger

Man's needs

1. Sexual Fulfillment 

Don't get it wrong, this is for married couple

And for woman, it does matter for your spouse.. ^^

2. Recreational Companionship 

To have fun with him

for being the best-est friend and playmate 

be willing to spend time ==> 15 hours per week

3. Attractive Spouse 

1 Samuel 16:7

=> quoting from Pst. Kong "how many of you know that your spouse is not God?"

haha... yea, he is stimulated by his sight

what you look does matter

by taking care of your appearance, you are taking care of your husband

5 major areas: weight control, make up, hair style, clothes, cosmetic surgery

4. Domestic Support

Peace and quite at home 

Proverbs 17:1 

Man hates troubles at home

For man home is a place to relax 

how to maintain? make a list of weekly household duty and fair division of labor

5. Admiration

Ephesians 5:33

honest admiration brings motivation and confidence 

man needs his wive to be his no.1 fans 

Well, today i'm only going to post this one.. later when i got time, i'll try to finish the others.. 

cheers

- be blessed -

Mistakes

I don't know how to open this post...

Really... I'm not kidding..

this is a question that came up to my mind today

"why can some of the new friends decided not to come in the very last minute?"

Then suddenly, the Holy Spirit reminds me of something 

something that maybe some of us don't remember

we have prayed for all the invitations. so that most of our friends would not reject our invitation. But what did you do after they said they wanted to come to church? 

Do we just stand there and wait for the day to contact all the new friends about meeting point? 

That is not the right way. As maybe some of us forget, 

"For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places."

(Ephesians 6:12)

So, what are we supposed to do? 

We are supposed to pray and bind every obstacles that may come across. 

For example: weather, laziness, work load, etc, etc, etc....

And also we must pray for them who come to be touched. not only come for once.

- be blessed -

Easter Day

Wow.. the easter drama is amazing. I always cried seeing my JC being crucified. although i was wearing my make up. i just can't seem to hold the tears, even though, i saw the same drama yesterday. 

So, today as i am being touched by the drama God took me back to 2 weeks ago. When we are having a morning prayer. That day (i forgot the exact day) as i have done praying all the the items, i was just talking to Him about the meaning of easter. Suddenly, He asked me to see around the room and said 

"my dear, see, when I see people like this, i never regret that I have died on the cross. not a single drop of blood I wanted back in my body because of all of you in this place"

I really cried that i remembered His word to me and at the same time seeing Him crucified for us.. For us..

this is the meaning of easter, knowing how painful it is for Him and how scared He is, but He never regretted that He saved us all. Do you know that He is suffering to death just for you and me???

So this is the challenge to all of you and me:

what do we do next after seeing our saviour did all of that for us? Do we live to the fullest? Do we walk with Him?

- be blessed -

Only for Him alone

today i realized one thing

one thing that really change my mind

read this carefully

"only when you are trying to meet man's expectation, fear may come. but if it is God you want to satisfied, no fear will come"

well, we are in the midst of so called "pre-easter" ==> asking friends and family to come join us at church. Today as i wanted to give out the invitation, fear came upon me. 

In my mind, "What if i got rejection, what if this person grow to hate me, what if none of my friends want to come, what if.., what if.."

hmmm.. God suddenly asked me

"Who do you really want to satisfied? Whose name you want to glorify?"

i answered, "You"

He replied "Then what are you afraid of? I set your way and you are walking in the path I have given to you. Let the rest be Mine to do. My name is glorified when you be my hand in the world." 

You'll broke your heart if you are trying to meet man's expectation, cause there is no end to man's expectation. 

But there is a joyful heart when you do it for Him. 

Cause in the end it's His voice that i want to hear saying "Well done"

- Be Blessed -

Tissue Paper Seller

Today my roommate and i went to Dhoby Ghaut MRT together. On the way we wanted to buy some tissue papers. 

Initially we wanted to go to 7-11, but on the street in front of peace center we saw a disabled old lady on a wheel chair selling tissue papers. 

So we decided to buy form her. 3 packs for 1 dollar as usual. So my roommate and i bought 1 set each. We were comparing the pictures on each pack until we feel something like paper at the back of a pack. We flip it and this is what we saw:

So she arranged the packs nicely so that we didn't see the paper until we wanted to use that pack. And I realized that for each set that we bought, there is one piece of paper with different bible verses. 

This is so cool! God is so cool. 

God can use everyone of us. Even an old disabled lady that is only selling tissue paper. 

You may think that her life is pitiful. Still working under the burning sun in her age. But you never know that she is one of God's hand. And who knows, how many life has received salvation by her selling these tissue paper.

Dear friend, God can use each and everyone of us. never think that you are not worthy to Him. 

 Matthew 9:37-38

"..... "The harvest is plentiful, but the laborers are few; pray before the Lord of harvest...."

Let us all pray so that we can also be hand of God..  That we can help Him to harvest.. 

My Prayer today

"God please bless that lady spiritually and physically. Give her strength and health. Let her be blessing to other people so that many will be saved."

- Be Blessed - 

Motivation

Easter is coming everyone... 

Let us all invite our friends to come.. It'll be amazing to see how God works

but in here i want to share about the motivation. 

as i prayed, God always reminds me of the motivation of everything i do.

Is it for the glory of His Kingdom or is it for our own glory?

As we become more and more on fire, sometimes what is supposed to glorify His Name just become a habit or sometimes just to hit some number..

So friends, let us all meditate again about the motivation in your heart. 

As the motivation in our heart is correct, He will move with us.. ^^

Be blessed